Do you know where my motivation is?

I’m a tall person. A very tall person. I’m also relatively thin; I have been my whole life (thanks Mom!). Actually, in high school I was extremely thin. And just a FYI: extremely tall + extremely thin = gangly awkwardness. The more I got into sports (especially basketball) I became more fit (and less freakishly skinny). I was toned, athletic, healthy and thin. I’ve always been 100% proud of my body. I honestly haven’t really had many complaints over the years.

Of course I’ve gained weight since high school – show me one person who hasn’t and I’ll give you a hundred bucks (or I may just curse them out?). I can’t say I worked out much in college (unless you count dancing on a Saturday night, or participating in drinking games as a workout?) yet, the scale never really went up. I slowly started to gain a little bit of weight starting around junior year in college. However, now that I’m 24 and not in my teens anymore, surprisingly my body gains weight a weee bit faster!

Now, I’m not writing this to brag about having a good metabolism. I’m also not writing this as a ‘skinny girl’ bitching and complaining about the extra weight I’ve gained since high school. I don’t have a problem with my gaining weight, I have a problem with the core problem: my laziness. I’m writing this because I have been hiding from the gym and neglecting work outs for…(I hate to say it)…months, and I need to do something about it. I envy people who love working out – who enjoy running, have a great time at yoga and spin until they can spin no more. I need that in my life.

I could blame my lack of motivation on a number of things:

1. The winter sucks and makes me want to hibernate

2. I work long hours and oftentimes my job can be pretty stressful. When I get home from a long day I just want to relax. Flip side? I’m not a morning person, so working out at 6am truthfully makes me want to upchuck

3. I don’t like any of the classes at my gym

4. The one class I did looooooooove (hip hop) got canceled and has since been replaced by a Zumba class taught by a woman who moves slower than a turtle

5. Bottom line, I feel like I haven’t found a class, activity or work out I love.

What I’m looking for, or think I need:

1. A hip hop class (they’re so much fun and I get a great workout!)

2. Possibly find a basketball team to play on? I also like to swim, so maybe look into the Y (somewhere with a pool) so I can incorporate that into my workout

3. I need to try to like yoga

4. I need to get into some sort of routine/schedule – i.e. Monday is hip hop, Tuesday is basketball, Wednesday is yoga, etc. This includes more sleep every night!

5. Bottom line, I need to just suck it up and get ‘er done!

The topic of body image has always fascinated me. A woman’s body is a beautiful thing. Too often we complain about our bodies, compare ourselves to other women, turn the pages of our latest fashion magazine with envy, try on outfit after outfit hating everything we put on and beat ourselves up over that cheeseburger and fries we enjoyed or the extra pound we’ve gained.

Our society tells us that thin is beautiful. Toned, tight bodies are what’s hot. What happened to individuality and unique bodies? I know I’m never going to be ‘perfect’ according to Hollywood (for example), but I know I can be perfect to me. What’s perfect? A healthy, in shape body. When I’m taking good care of myself (and yes, that includes still enjoying cheeseburger, fries, cupcakes, etc. every now and then) I feel great. I have more energy and I’m proud of myself.

I lost my motivation. It has run far, far away from me, but I know I can (and will) get it back.

PS: Currently accepting any suggestions, tips, advice, etc.! :)

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I hate the circus

Naveen Sultan of Telegraph21, ‘a new video magazine featuring the best documentary films and art videos from around the world’ passed this clip on to me (thank you!), which I would like to share with you. Here is a clip from ‘Cover Girl Culture,’ a documentary by Nicole Clark (producer/director/former Elite model.) 

http://www.telegraph21.com/video/cover-girl-culture 

This documentary explores the world of fashion as well as the thoughts, feelings and self-critiques of young women affected by the messages that designers, models, advertisers, editors, magazines in general, etc. put out into the world. Many people in the Fashion Industry who are partially responsible for low self-esteem among young women (for showing unattainable body images for the average young woman) say they want to see ‘healthy, happy’ girls in their magazines and on the runway. Well, if you want to see them so bad, where are they? One young woman in the clip explains how magazines say, ‘Don’t worry about your weight, but look at this [pin-thin model.]‘ This is an unfair, not to mention, confusing message. To those in the Fashion Industry, working for fashion magazines – You can not tell these girls, ‘You are beautiful because you are different, healthy is ‘in’, feel good about your body,’ etc. etc. when you are still only showing extremely thin women in your magazines. 

All we’re asking is for you is to do what you say you’re going to do. Why can’t it be ‘in’ for young women around the world to read your magazines and while they’re reading, they see girls who look like them, girls they can identify with? Maybe it’s time to get in the mindset of – ‘When a young woman reads my magazine, she’s going to feel empowered, beautiful and happy.’ And by saying this I mean showing every type of young women – thin included. There are obviously all different body types, skin types, skin colors, hair/eye colors, etc. let’s help everyone feel included. A young woman’s ego, self-esteem and self-worth are so extremely important –  magazines could play such a huge role in affecting these three things in a positive way, if taken seriously. 

In other news… 

Enjoy $1 off any ‘all fruit smoothie’ from now until April 10th http://www.jambajuice.com/eb/ff/jmff.html 

- Every weekday morning from 8am-10am, Paris Creperie in Coolidge Corner gives away free coffee with a crepe purchase. Yum. 278 Harvard Street, Brookline  – (617) 232-1770‎ 

- Wicked is coming to Boston! At the Boston Opera House from September 1st – October 17th. 

From Boston.com e-newsletter*

Pre-sale begins today, and on April 11th ticket sales are open to the general public. It’s an amazing show – I highly recommend it! 

http://www.ticketmaster.com/venueartist/8835/1426040?&camefrom=CFC_BUYAT_rozq1 

  

  

  • - BU students get 15% off at JCrew in Copley Square tonight. Wish I went to BU… http://ow.ly/1s9Gr

  

  • Free appetizers tonight at Redbones from 6:30pm-8:30pm in celebration of Jay Atkinson’s new book, ‘Paradise Road.’ He’ll be reading and you’ll be listening/picking on delicious food – not a bad deal. http://bit.ly/cZ3QSy – 55 Chester Street, Somerville – (617) 628-2200

            More about ‘Paradise Road’http://www.jayatkinson.com/ 

  •  Like the circus? I don’t! In fact, I hate it. Anyway, Buy With Me has a coupon for their deal of the day to The Big Apple Circus for $15 at City Hall Plaza. Click below if interested…

http://us1.campaign-archive.com/?u=17c5e85f775c10d8a0c755376&id=66ff76cfc3&e=de3ecae0cc 

  •  Living Social’s deal of the day is $10 for $20 worth of food at Conor Larkin’s Grill and Tap – 329 Huntington Ave, Boston – http://livingsocial.com/deals/964?

  

For more information, please call Bravo at (617) 369-3474. 

With that, I’ll leave you with this – a clip of Jack Johnson’s new song, ‘You and Your Heart’ :
His new album, To the Sea, ‘drops’ June 1st. I truly couldn’t be more excited! :)